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Once upon a time

It was nearly 10 years ago when we met the first time. A grumpy me, a practical n quick thinker Vina and a clumsy/careless Dolla. We met by chance, lived in the same building or went to the same class. Different personalities but who would disagree that we completed each other back then. What might seem like merely coincident, grew stronger together. Today we had the chance to see each other again and realized how the time has passed, brought us to the next phase in our lives.  One’s getting married this year, one, who I never thought could settle doing the same job for a long period of time, is still working her first job until today and the other one is striving to start up a new business. This made me think. Life is always about making choices. But at the same time, life is also about fate. One says lower your expectation so you wont get disappointed, but there is also a saying that we should dare to dream big. At the end, we should all agree that despite how perfect we’ve planned our lives, there are these little things that stirred up the ingredients and produce a different outcome altogether. It could be a nice big surprise or a huge mess that we want to avoid. It doesn’t matter…. what matters the most is how we react to those changes, those unexpected things and how we decide to overcome it. The strongest of the three of us, the one with the steel heart and big dreams, she climbs her steps to the top and so far has lifted up to the expectation. She’s done alright! The one who once had commitment issue, turned out to be very committed, to her work, to her relationship, and has matured up well. The gloomy one, still sometimes be gloomy, but trying hard to add some purpose into the mood. Trying hard to have a tenth of that motivation and ambition that her friend has, and trying hard to make it true. We reminisce our old lives, hoping that by thinking we could survive the hardships back then, why must back down now? At least I think that way. It’s a pleasure to spend few hours with them again. How I wished we could make it longer, perhaps as long as our sleepless nights waiting for the first train back to our hostel rooms… but for now we should just treasure what we have, though it is only for a short moment. Grateful that despite all the changes in life, we can still be us around each other. And for being the people they are, I admire them… Long live Primus!

-L

 
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Posted by on May 10, 2015 in ShoutOut

 

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Jatuh Hati

By Raisa

ada ruang hatiku yang kau temukan
sempat aku lupakan kini kau sentuh
aku bukan jatuh cinta namun aku jatuh hati

ku terpikat pada tuturmu, aku tersihir jiwamu
terkagum pada pandangmu, caramu melihat dunia
ku harap kau tahu bahwa ku terinspirasi hatimu
ku tak harus memilikimu tapi bolehkah ku selalu di dekatmu

ada ruang hatiku kini kau sentuh
aku bukan jatuh cinta namun aku jatuh hati

ku terpikat pada tuturmu, aku tersihir jiwamu
terkagum pada pandangmu, caramu melihat dunia
ku harap kau tahu bahwa ku terinspirasi hatimu
ku tak harus memilikimu tapi bolehkah ku selalu di dekatmu

katanya cinta memang banyak bentuknya
yang ku tahu pasti sungguh aku jatuh hati

ku terpikat pada tuturmu, aku tersihir jiwamu
terkagum pada pandangmu, caramu melihat dunia
ku harap kau tahu bahwa ku terinspirasi hatimu
ku tak harus memilikimu tapi bolehkah ku selalu di dekatmu
tapi bolehkah ku selalu di dekatmu

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spot on!

-L

 
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Posted by on April 5, 2015 in Songs and Lyrics

 

In remembrance

It was 6 years ago… the day I decided to move on and close that room inside. 5 years it was open… 5 damn years… countless of tears I shed, and I lost my fat too! Almost lost my friendship but thank God I did not. It was a long 5 years, waiting for you to enter it but you did not. We grew up, grew apart and I finally realized there’s a bigger world out there even without you. So I decided it was finally the time to end that chapter. People came in and out, some people left footprints, but yours are still the hardest to erase.
When she wore that ring from you, my time stopped for a while… and now when you two said that three magic words, I just knew, I had to start writing again.
You were my inspiration… you were the Nola AB3 to Glenn Fredly, you were that ex to Adele and that man to Sam Smith… now it’s time for me to find my new inspiration… thank you for the warmth in my heart you created, thank you for teaching me the sensitivity that I didn’t think I had… thank you for loving me in my dream….

May God bless you and your new family….

-L

 
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Posted by on March 20, 2015 in ShoutOut

 

How the mighty have fallen

He was one of the reasons I came back but now he’s gonna be one of the reasons I leave… for good…
How the mighty have fallen.
How once the greatest leader I’ve met turned to a “villain”.
It’s unfair that he is the only one who can use God to justify his doings. Still… he is no God.
“Everyone in here is not indispensable,” he says… really, Sir? That’s the best line you can deliver in a morning devotion? I have to disagree with you this time. In my opinion, you won’t be able to find someone like me, like I will never find someone like you again. The good, the bad, each and everyone of us is worth something… and even if you won’t remember me in the future, my kids do… and for me, that is more than enough.

-L

 
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Posted by on March 20, 2015 in ShoutOut

 

Tertatih ku melangkah
Di dalam kegelapan yang menyesatkan
Aku sendiri dalam bayangku
Mencari cahaya di ujung jalan

Akankah kutemukan sang matahari
Merasakan hangatnya di pelukku

Akankah kuraih sang bintang
Yang kala itu terlepas dari jemariku

Sebelum mata ini tertutup
Sebelum nafas ini terhenti
Pintaku padaNya
Sudikah Kau antarku pada takdirku

-L

 
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Posted by on January 4, 2015 in Poems

 

Air Asia QZ 8501

It was 3 days after Christmas, 3 days before the New Year…. Lots of them travelled in groups of families. Lots of them shared the same last names. They are my countrymen, travelled to the one country that I visited the most other than my own. It was just a regular flight, in a regular day, and one expected to go through the day regularly. But it was not…
Of all the tragedies happened this year, this one somehow feels very close to me. I cant imagine how terrified they were when the pilot told them that their plane was about to go down. How do you feel when you were told that you were going to die and you can’t do anything about it? Some of them travelled with kids or infants… did they cry when it was about to happen? Were they old enough to understand death? What was in their parents’ mind the moment before it ended? Was there anyone who felt relieved? Who felt peace?
Before it was found, I still had a little hope that it would somehow be found landed safely somewhere. That most of the passengers would be found alive. When they announced that they have found bodies and debris of the plane floating on the sea…. it was heartbreaking…
I know the sadness I feel now is nothing compared to their friends or family members who were waiting for this news. I can never understand their pain. And whatever words came out from my mouth would have no use to mend their broken hearts. It is something that they must go through on their own and nobody else can ease the pain. I wish I could do something to reduce their burden. But like an old friend said to me once, “you have to carry your own cross, no body else can carry your cross… only Jesus can help you through.” So I pray to Him… may He carry you in carrying your cross… may He hold your hands and sustain you. You can cry, you can scream out your frustration, your anger, anything… but have hope still… to face the future… hang on brothers and sisters… hang on…

-L

 
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Posted by on December 31, 2014 in ShoutOut

 

Empty seats

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The store is open… we are ready to take people in…
There is always a place for everyone…
The question is how to get them in?

-L

 
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Posted by on December 29, 2014 in ShoutOut