The 23rd on the 23rd….

The Birthday Song

Don’t worry about that extra line
That’s creeping up upon your face
It’s just a part of nature’s way
To say you’ve grown a little more
Trees have rings and thicker branches
Kids shoes get a little tighter
Every year we’re getting closer to who we’re gonna be
It’s time to celebrate the story of how you’ve come to be

Happy birthday my friend
Here’s to all the years we’ve shared together
All the fun we’ve had
You’re such a blessing
Such a joy in my life
May the good Lord bless you
And may all your dreams come true

So light a candle on your cake
For every smile you’ve helped create
For every heart and every soul
You’ve known to grow a little more
A few more pounds, a little more grey
Don’t count the years just count the way
It takes a little time to go from water into wine
Don’t ever lose the wonder of the child within your eyes

Happy birthday my friend
Here’s to all the years we’ve shared together
All the fun we’ve had
It’s such a blessing
Such a joy in my life
May the good Lord bless you
And may all your dreams come true

Artist: Corrinne May

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At The Cross – Hillsong

Verse 1
Oh Lord You’ve searched me
You know my ways
Even when I fail You
I know You love me

Your holy presence
Surrounding me
In every season
I know You love me
I know You love me

Chorus
At the cross I bow my knee
Where Your blood was shed for me
There’s no greater love than this
You have overcome the grave
Your Glory fills the highest place
What can separate me now?

You go before me
You shield my way
Your hand upholds me
I know You love me
Chorus
At the cross I bow my knee
Where Your blood was shed for me
There’s no greater love than this
You have overcome the grave
Your Glory fills the highest place
What can separate me now (x2)

You tore the veil
You made a way
When You said that it is done (x2)

And when the earth fades
falls from my eyes
You stand before me
I know You love me
I know You love me

Chorus
At the cross I bow my knee
Where Your blood was shed for me
There’s no greater love than this
You have overcome the grave
Glory fills the highest place
What can separate me now (x2)

You tore the veil
You made a way
When You said that it is done (x4)

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It’s Good Friday…. and I’m being reminded of what He has done thousands years ago right on that cross. He sacrificed himself to save us all, not only those who love Him but also those who hate Him. There’s no love greater than His and I’m thankful for that. I asked this question many times to myself. I and so many people out there could’ve lived our lives without knowing who You are and what You’ve done. But why Lord? Why did You do it for us? The strangers, the haters, the sinners?  I can’t understand it until now. I can’t picture myself being tortured for people who don’t even know me, for people who hate me and mock me and despise me and call me a liar. It needs more than just some courage, kindness, love and every other thing this world could recognize…. It takes You to do this…. And You are the only one who can do it. And for that, I call Him my God, my Lord, Jesus Christ…. For we were slaves but now we are free by the cost of the blood He shed that day….

Happy Good Friday everyone….

-L

Never Knew I Needed

Here just to share a song that captured my heart since the first time I heard it.

For the way you changed my plans
for being the perfect distraction
for the way you took the idea that i have
of everything that i wanted to have
and made me see there was something missing

for the ending of my first begin
and for the rare and unexpected friend
for the way you’re something that i never choose
but at the same time something i don’t wanna lose
and never wanna be without ever again

you’re the best thing i never knew i needed
so when you were here i had no idea
you’re the best thing i never knew i needed
so now it’s so clear i need you here always

my accidental happily (ever after)
the way you smile and how you comfort me (with your laughter)
i must admit you were not a part of my book
but now if you open it up and take a look
you’re the beginning and the end of every chapter

you’re the best thing i never knew i needed
so when you were here i had no idea
you’re the best thing i never knew i needed
so now it’s so clear i need you here always

who’d knew that i’d be here
so unexpectedly
undeniably happy
said with you right here, right here next to me

girl you’re the..
you’re the best thing i never knew i needed
so when you were here i had no idea
you’re the best thing i never knew i needed
so now it’s so clear i need you here always
baby baby
now it’s so clear i need you here always

Artist: Ne-Yo

You are my GOD

“Here I Am”

Here I am worshiping with my soul
And my heart rejoices in You
Cause You are my God, my shelter
The tower of strength all my days

All the things I can do
It’s all because of You
There’s none of me, it’s all of You
So here I am worshiping You

You are my God, You are my light
Shine on me bright, so I can see Your way
Teach me O God
To rest myself in You
Lead me on, ‘till I find my way home to You

-True Worshippers Youth-

Forget about who I am, where I came from, what I made of or how can I be here right now. I have been so busy in explaining myself to everybody else until I missed out the most important thing in my life…. It is not necessary for people to know who I am…. The more important thing is for them to know my Lord. The Boss, the Father, the Savior, the Best Friend, the Way, the everything….

I felt empty for the past few months wondering what is missing inside my life. I miss the time I can worship Him with all my heart, I miss the time I can kneel down spontaneously with tears ran down admitting His greatness and His creation in my life. I thought it was because I feel secure in here, close to my family, got a good job, no exam pressure at all, feel I am so great compared to everybody else. But perhaps, the only reason is…. I am not ready…. Not ready to be a “Christian” adult. My brother said to me once, that one will always start everything by being responsible in a very small matter, if one succeeds then one will get a slightly bigger responsibility. I thought I have been through my “childhood” era in Christianity. But I guess, the moment I felt that is the moment I failed it. So I guess, now I have to start everything by handling the small matters again. Find me Lord…. for I am lost and confused….
“shine on me bright so I can see your way….”

-L

“Blame It On My Youth”

If, I expected love, when first we kissed, blame it on my youth
If only just for you, I did exist, blame it on my youth
I believed in everything
Like a child of three
You meant more than anything
You meant all the world to me

If, you were on my mind, all night and day, blame it on my youth
If, I forgot to eat, and sleep and pray, blame it on my youth
If I cried a little bit, when first I learned the truth
Don’t blame it on my heart, blame it on my youth

– Jamie Cullum

I hope I still have my youth to be blamed for. Perhaps this is what people say as absolute stupidity. First time I heard this song, it went deep to my heart. As maybe it’s true. Nothing to regret about everything that I’ve done because all of them are just parts of long processes to achieve the higher level, or maybe in this case is what we call as “maturity”. Sometimes a child might have a very bright mind and more knowledge that the adults but he is still a child. There are things that can only be learned as people get older. This convinces me that tomorrow I’ll be better, considering I have one more day past by and with that I again add something to my bank of experiences and knowledge and wisdom or whatever you call it. I guess this supports what we know as law of balance, because actually we never lost anything as by losing something we get a new lesson. And since every event is unique, it might need unique sacrifice to each of them. One thing I know about sacrifice, it has never tasted good in the beginning….. But the harder the start, the happier I got when I touched the finish line. Beh…. I sound very desperate…. It might indeed be true…. I have been lost for months, running away from my own God, running away from myself, running away from everything that has been known as part of my life. I was being very arrogant and felt superior towards everything. I still remember perfectly how my math teacher told me that I didn’t have enough confidence for myself, but what is happening right now is the opposite. I remember my friend once told me that I was someone with gifts and talents yet always put myself as a second person compared to anybody else. Now…. I really miss those things. I want to stop all the thoughts in my mind which telling me that everybody else is not as great as me. Because I know that indeed I am weak and I need everyone to keep me from falling… As Paul the Apostle once said,“…. for my strength is made perfect in weakness.” I want to be weak in order to be strong again.

-L

The ALpHa… – an introduction –

After winding around in many pages to publish my writings, I have now decided to stand still on one solid ground. This is the start of my new era as a human being, as I will soon enter the professional world after more than 15 years struggling and playing hard in schools and university. I came about to know that there are so many things in the daily life that have led me to become who I am right now, and so it’s an extra thing for me to able to share my thought across the platform provided.

Well, that’s it for the serious introduction. ^_^ and also it would be nice for me to ask for permission to use some of your names, those who recognize themselves as having me as a friend, an enemy (I hope I don’t have one), or anything. At least there is one thing I can do by putting you guys on the show and of coz promoting your names to others. (y’all should later give me some present for that… haha).

Few days ago, my friend, who is also my “nenek” (that’s how we address each other… so I don’t know who is the grandma and who is the granddaughter), Helga sent me this song. It’s a song sung by Corrinne May, “Love Song for #1. At first I thought it was just a regular love song, but when I was listening to it, I started to feel very calm…. It was like behind the nice tune, there is a much deeper message to all of us. And honestly I started to think that this is indeed a Christian song. But well, because that time I was still struggling in my studying to face my last paper, I don’t really care of finding the information about the song and such. However, it was very helpful for me to listen to this song while I was studying; indeed it made me concentrate more on the exams. Later on after I finished my paper, I searched for this song, and looking for the lyrics. Only then I realized that this song indeed is a Christian song.

Love Song for #1 by Corrinne May

In the twinkling stars that dance like fireflies
In the blushing fruit that hangs upon the vine
In the face of a baby as he forms his first smile
I see you

In the whisper of the wind’s soft lullaby
In the laughter and the roar of the rushing tide
In the song of a sparrow as he takes his first flight
I hear you

Why do you hide among the nameless and forgotten
Why do you walk along these long forsaken roads
Calling to me in the hungry and the homeless
Calling me to water your thirst

So I’ll give you my heart and my song
In a world where so much is right
But so much is wrong
Your love is my beginning and I know it won’t be too long
Till I see you

Why do you hide among the nameless and forgotten
Why do you walk along these long forsaken roads
Calling to me in the hungry and the homeless
Calling me to water your thirst

So I’ll give you my heart and my song
In a world where so much is right
But so much is wrong
Your love is my beginning and I know it won’t be too long
Till I see you, I hear you, I love you

Wew… no matter how many times I listen to it, it really calms my nerves down and makes me feel an overwhelming peace surrounds me. This is also the reason why I put this post under the title “The ALPHA”, coz I want everything in my life starts with His blessings and His words. Having been living in this world for more than 20 years, I’ve been asked around why I’m putting my faith to someone that can’t be seen nor exists with a solid body in today’s life. But friends, this is me with my solely faith to one person who has not been away from my life from the very first beginning until now, and I believe until forever. Like she said “Your love is my beginning and I know it won’t be too long. Till I see you…” Not everyone can understand, and even some address it as a stupidity. Yet, I’ve been through my life, and found so many amazing things wrapped me around this entire time. The bad things, the good things, every single thing happens under His plans…. And serve only for greater purposes.

So, this is my alpha leading to the grand omega….

“I am Alpha and Omega, the beginning and the end, the first and the last.” – Revelation 22:13 (KJV) –

-L