One Step

I stood here waiting

For the doubts to fade

For the fear to cast aside

Years came flashing back

Pulling my feet onto the ground

I can feel the earth cracked

Leaving pieces of moments to tie me down

“How much longer?”

Asked the weary soul

As seconds ticking away

And faith slipping by

The heart realizes

Nothing else keeps

One footstep is all needed

“It’ll get lighter”

Says the little voice

So I lift up my foot and push it forward

Hoping that one day it will really get lighter

-L

Like an artist in front of a clean canvas
A simple sweep of brush fills the emptiness
One more stroke to create a familiar face
As he carefully adds emotion to complete the eyes

He has a choice to tell his own story
A chance to add a narrative
To opt for a darker or lighter color
He has the power to breathe his soul to his art

Not too much! He says
Just the right shadow to show his doubts
And the right light to express his hope

In the world of finite chances and infinite alternatives
Will this be his masterpiece or another piece of worthless art?

Tertatih ku melangkah
Di dalam kegelapan yang menyesatkan
Aku sendiri dalam bayangku
Mencari cahaya di ujung jalan

Akankah kutemukan sang matahari
Merasakan hangatnya di pelukku

Akankah kuraih sang bintang
Yang kala itu terlepas dari jemariku

Sebelum mata ini tertutup
Sebelum nafas ini terhenti
Pintaku padaNya
Sudikah Kau antarku pada takdirku

-L

Mereka dan aku

Masih kurasakan hangatnya pandanganmu

Yg jadikanku kuat tetapi juga rapuh

Masih kunantikan saat kau menoleh mencari bayangku

Yg jadikan hatiku berlari dalam diamku

 

Apa kabar bagian hatiku

Lelah ku cari sinar mata itu

Sudahkah bosan kau di sisiku

menghilang dari hadapku

 

Sekali kau buatku tenggelam

Kebingungan di dalam ketidakberdayaanku

 

Dan kini saatnya pun tiba

Saat kau berdiam dlm bayangnya

Saat ku berdiri di kejauhan

Menatap dlm sendiriku

 

Apakah dia yg membuatmu bergetar

Apakah dia yg membuatmu hanyut dlm kelemahanmu

Akankah pandangan itu datang kembali

Dan melepaskanku dari bekuku

 

Bila melepas tak lagi cukup

Biarlah ingatan ini terhapus

Membawa serta tetes air mata yg luruh

Dan sakit dalam peluh

 

Karena pada akhirnya

Kita tak pernah ada

Hanya mereka dan aku

-L

He gave me His answers….

Isaiah 41:13  For I the LORD thy God will hold thy right hand, saying unto thee, Fear not; I will help thee.
Isaiah 41:17  When the poor and needy seek water, and there is none, and their tongue faileth for thirst, I the LORD will hear them, I the God of Israel will not forsake them.
Isaiah 42:6  I the LORD have called thee in righteousness, and will hold thine hand, and will keep thee, and give thee for a covenant of the people, for a light of the Gentiles;
Isaiah 43:2  When thou passest through the waters, I will be with thee; and through the rivers, they shall not overflow thee: when thou walkest through the fire, thou shalt not be burned; neither shall the flame kindle upon thee.
Isaiah 43:4  Since thou wast precious in my sight, thou hast been honourable, and I have loved thee: therefore will I give men for thee, and people for thy life.
Isaiah 43:25  I, even I, am he that blotteth out thy transgressions for mine own sake, and will not remember thy sins.

-L

Chasing your shadow

The night was cold
And there you were, waiting for me
Sitting in the dark
Waiting for a familiar light to creep in 

Ten steps away
Yet it felt like we’re ten oceans away
I looked at your shadow
and instantly the warmth of your presence overcame my sorrow

Remind me again why I have waited for so long
And how I could get it wrong
It is you and me
It is your hand and mine

Our eyes met
a shy smile let out to greet
You shook my hand
But I hugged you in my mind

Is it gonna be this way
You walking away
And I, left crying seeing your back moving away
 
Is it gonna be this way
You promised me to come back
And I, left out seeing your back moving away 

How I wish the clock would just stop
Freeze our moments together
Record our joy and laughter
 
Midnight was still an hour shy
and there you were, waving good bye
I could see my hands grasping you shadow
Letting it go, slipping through my fingers 

It is gonna be this way
I am always here chasing your shadow
Hugging it in the dark
Sharing smiles over a cup of coffee
Me and your shadow
Coz I know I can’t have the real you..

-L

si manusia gila

Apa sulitnya berkata ketika lidah sudah mengayun

Tapi tetap, aku sulit untuk berucap

Apa sulitnya menulis ketika jemari sudah bergerak

Tapi tetap, aku sulit merangkai kata

 

Katanya tutup saja matamu maka kau akan melihat

Kututup mata ini dan yang terlihat hanya gelap

Kosong, sunyi…

 

3 bulan saudara…

Dan kau akan melihatnya lagi

Ini bulan ketiga kawan

Dan aku lelah menunggu

 

Jangan kausebut diriku bodoh

Kan kujawab semua tanyamu

Sebut saja aku gila

Punya alasan untuk setiap tipumu

 

 

Terimakasih saudaraku

Atas saran di atas lukaku

Akan kubalas kau dengan senyumku

Dan tetap ku menunggu

 

Tak apa…

Jangan usik rasa nyaman ini

Berdiri di atas tanah basah

Aku rindu terjatuh

Karena lelah ku berdiri

 

-L